All my work is an intimate confession for all to see. My Paintings are emotionally fueled autobiographical pieces. I believe we all have our own brand of miserable stuff to deal with. My agenda doesn't include sympathy or a desire for attention. I can only hope for some level of understanding and a little less judgment.
At the age of 19 I was diagnosed with Bi-Polar Disorder, specifically "Rapid-Cycling Bipolar Disorder." (10% of those with Bipolar have this type.), which causes me to experience 3 or more episodes of mania and/or depression in a single year. The anxiety of uncertainty after the diagnosis set in and left me confused and disoriented without direction for years. I was in need of an outlet for everything that continually built within and also a way to vent my aggression and upset with the world around me. My Illness shaped my life as well my career in art, and creative process.
The one thing I did consistently through the struggle was art. Painting became more then just a consistent action though. It's a solution, a way of life, a means to no longer internalize the horror I feel. In painting I'm in control, I'm calling the shots, and I'm responsible for how my paintings turn out void of help and handouts unearned. Expressing myself so thoroughly with paint provides a method for silencing the abundance of demons within. Art prevents internal decay from taking me over. My work gives me the ability to explain/express my true self the way words could not. An optimistic perspective on my condition was gained because of my experiences painting. I had realized that painting was worth my total devotion.
Now I'm aware that comfort in my own skin is achieved with brush in hand. I speak best through paint. My enjoyment lies within the thrill of the painting process. Eating, sleeping, and breathing what I create is necessary in order to maintain daily stability. My unrelenting creative impulses makes life worth the effort. The act of creating something from nothing is why I get out of bed. I am a painter, it is not my job; it is my purpose, my calling, and a means to keep my head above water.
In the beginning of 2015, I set out to create a Painting series finishing in December 2016. A group of paintings that depicted the complete unrestricted bare bones exposure of my true self inside and out for the first time. Entitled "The Divulged Interior," the series consists of (8) large-scale abstract paintings of varying sizes. Each piece provides insight as to what it is like for me to live with a brain disorder. The paintings show my personal situations and experiences along the path I choose to walk. Also depicted in the series are my profound daily struggles, pain endured, and lessons learned. Lastly the paintings reveal all the significant traits/characteristics that define me as a person.
Painting is the key to longevity in this life of mine. I can firmly guarantee that painting is going to be a lifelong love affair which reinforces my true identity. This is what I do, who I am, why I exist, and where I'll continue to be.
Daniel Tackney - DiGrazia